the body breaks

i made another video!

four hours

i leave in four hours.

in four hours i'm gone.

only four hours to maybe come clean to you.

i have four hours to tell the truth.

four hours a day i spent wanting tell you.

four hours a day i spent silent.

i have four hours to tell the truth,

but for four hours i'll stay silent.

hi hannah.

she posted a large survey like 3 months ago. so i decided to take it. it honestly took me somewhere around an hour to complete. i finished it and then erased it. i like surveys, i laughed at myself a ton. so take some and you'll start:

- asking yourself some WEIRD questions

- thinking about people you wanted to forget

- typing things you never thought would be let out

- being reminded of stupid things you've done

- being reminded of very smart things you've done

- mending a friendship you miss

- asking internal questions about the person you got it from

- wasting 1/24 of your day

- posting about a (possibly) failed attempt at another one.

whistling in the woods.

We move on to move up.

We get over that to get here.

We say goodbye to say hello.

And we're always run away to get toward something else.

My heart said goodbye last night, so i can say hello.

My eyes closed last night, so my mind can see it clear.

My feet moved last night, so they can stand over there.

And my hands got cold last night, so someone else can make them warm.

He walked in as you were leaving.

He put his arms where yours used to fit.

He stands in your fading footprints.

And he gets the calls that used to be for you.

the sun will shine, then the moon will rise

"The body stays and then the body moves on, but id much rather not dwell on when yours will be gone."

accept and then put aside the inevitable.

i know for certain this will not last.

but right now, that doesnt mean much.

its about right now,

its about right here,

forever.

it's like a man's best party only happens when he dies.

can i take a moment to tell you how much i love City and Colour.

well, there it was.

in other news, its nice out. i want new faces. i have a notebook, i write letters.. to people who dont actually exist, and people who do. i think if someone found this, they'd know everything. when im done filling it up, im going to drop it on a street corner after crossing out any names. maybe you'll find it, or maybe ill pick it up in a few years down the road. by then, maybe the memories of today will be blurred inside the bottle i'll hold between shaking fingers. but hey, who really knows where the wind, water and hands will take this collection of notes. or maybe, ill drop it into your hands. then, when you notice the lock on the side, the keys down my throat, and thats it one last ride.

click on

what could possibly be the coolest thing ever

this single-handedly made me an annoying person.

1. I’ve come to realize that my hair:

will never grow as long as i want it to
2. I’ve come to realize that when I talk:

my voice always sounds different

3. I’ve come to realize that when i love someone:

im wrong

4. I’ve come to realize that I need:

to turn 16 and get a license
5. I’ve come to realize that I’ve lost:

my ring

6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when:

food goes bad
8. I’ve come to realize that people:

are really interesting

9. I’ve come to realize that I’ll always be:

a little far for me to reach
10. I’ve come to realize that I love spending my time with:

my friends pets
11. I’ve come to realize that the last time I cried:

was not for the last time.
12. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone is:

not as important as i want it to be
13. I’ve come to realize that my friends are:

everyone i meet

14. I’ve come to realize that before I go to sleep at night:

i brush my teeth a little too hard

15. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking about:

flowers
16. I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook:

i become a scary stalker
18. I’ve come to realize that tonight I will:

unflood my basement
Honesty…

1. Will you answer every question honestly?

yess of course
2. Stayed up drunk all night?

no

3. Have you ever punched anyone in the face?

this is something i dont think i could ever do, no

4. Do you miss anything or anyone?

of course

.5. Who makes you laugh no matter what?

kathy griffin

6. Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past five hours?

no i have not
7. Who was the last person you talked to?

my dad

8. What do you dislike at the moment?

the rain outside
9. Name one of your friends who is the most like you?

umm. it has to be katie. we share alot of genes. and we live in the same house

Honestly.

1. Do you get butterflies around the guy/girl you like?

umm no.

2. Will you get married?

i like to think not.
Very Personal.

1. Are you happy with yourself?

i am.
2. Would you change yourself for the person you love?

if thats what it took, i guess id have to

3. What do you tell yourself when times get hard?

theres a great big beautiful tomorrow, shining at the end of everyday

Secrets.

1. Why did you last cry?

honestly, i do not know

2. Do you believe in religion?

such a stupid question. in any religion?? what does this mean.
3. What is currently on your mind?

flowers.
1. Have you done bad things with your parents nearby?

maybe?

2. Have you started a horrible rumor about somebody?

thattt i have not.

3. Did you ever fail the school year?

not yet, this year isnt over

4. Have you ever been too drunk to remember a certain night?

no

5. Do you think your future will be a good one?

the futures always good
Deep

1. Do you think you were raised well?

yes
2. Do you have a secret that you’ve never told ANYONE?

noppe
3. How do you handle stress?

doing whatever it takes to eliminate it.
4. How would you spend your last day alive?

the same way i spend every other day..who knows, this could be it.

5. Do you hide things well or do you have a guilty conscience?

this depends.
6. If there was true love on one side of the street and a million bucks on the other, which one would you choose?

the yellow lines.
7. If your parents got divorced and you had to pick mom or dad to live with, who would you choose?

this question isnt even realistic. at all.
8. If you had to choose between having one family member or 5 of your closest friends die who would you choose?
my five closest friends are my family.
Love
1. Do you know if you’re in love?

i know that im not. so yeah

3. What’s the most important part of a relationship in your opinion?

harmony. but not E

4. If your parents didn’t like the person you were dating, would you lose them?

yeah, i hate difficulty
Random.
Do you spend time with the same people always?

no. and this makes me happy
Are you the type that would rather stay at other people’s houses or have them at yours?

other people's houses

When is the last time you were truly happy with your life?

hm. 2.2 seconds ago.
Do you really think exes can be “just friends”?

i have to. im living it

Who text messaged you last?

i think it was angela
When was the last time you told someone you loved them and meant it?

today, luh you mama.
If you could pack up and leave your life now to move away, would you?

in a heartbeat
Do you fall for people easily?

not people, no
Do your parents really know YOU? yes

Lyrics stuck in your head? "hey there little sexy pig you made it with a man..."
Any friends you’d like to tell how much you appreciate them?

yeah. of course

Last time you walked farther than one block?

saturdaaaay

Off The Wall.
Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep?

everynight
When was the last time you had Starbucks?

not sure. im dunks kinda person

Do you think people talk about you behind your back?

i dont think so

Is anyone in love with you?

no
Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?

this pimple on my nose makes me want my nose pierced
What’s the weather like?

raining

The last person you kissed bumped into you at school, what would you say?

oh id awkwardly wave and he would to. its great actually...

Would you rather grow old with someone or be single forever?

i want to be single forever

Has anyone ever said something that brought tears to your eyes?

yeah
Is there anybody you wish would just fall off the planet?

yeah, but only because they would enjoy it.

Are there any stressful situations in your life?

not at the moment no
What were you doing at 10:00pm last night?

sleeping

Did you do anything risky last night?

not that i recall.
At this time yesterday, what were you doing?

sleeAre you the type who is in a new relationship every week?Nope.Are you mad about anything right now?Yes.
Are you excited about anything?Aren’t I always?
Are you going through any type of pain at this exact moment?No.
Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?A few times.
Have you ever done something you promised yourself you wouldn’t?Yes.
Do you like the person who likes you? I don’t know…
Where could I have found you last Friday?Stalker.What are you planning on doing after this?Project…yay.
When is the next time you will kiss someone?Who knows?You’re locked in a room with the person you last kissed, what happens?Umm…
What are your LEGAL initials?CFFD.
What’s one thing that your tense about lately?Stuff.
Who do you go to when you need advice?Different people, different advice.
Do you think the last person you kissed cares for you?Maybe…o and I’d like to take this chance to say I officially hate Facebook.
Plans for Saturday?Maybe…
Could things possibly get any better?Yes.Who are you hanging out with tomorrow?People at school…What time did you go to sleep last night?1ish…
Do you get annoyed by one word texts?Sometimes…after I talk a lot.
Rent a movie or go see one in theaters? Depends on the movie and who I’m with.
Who is always able to cheer you up when you’re sad?Coffee.
Have you ever broken a couple up?I think so…maybe…
What time did you wake up today?10:00 ish.
Honestly, are things going the way you planned?Nothing ever does.
Are you happy right now?Content.
Do you have a reason to smile right now?Many.

this just made me an annoying person.

Khangendra Thapa Magar