"boyfriends are like purses"

This queen bed i all i'll know for the next month.
This blue bottle of water, gatorade and more water.
I eat saltines and cheerios, crackers and cereal.
I watch laguna beach and the life and times of tim.
Enjoying visits from friends bearing food.
Enjoying sleeping after a long day of resting.
Listening to taylor swift and ryan adams.
Listening to LC, kristen and jason.
Not too much facebook.
Not too much cell phone.
A little too much peeing.
A little too much dreaming.
"Maybe i think your cute and funny.
Maybe i wanna do what bunnies do, with you,
if you know what I mean."

Rub-a-dub Style

I'm waiting for the "after" shot. The picture of the scene thats new and improved. I want to hold it next to my portraits of today and see the changes, the transformation.

New skin, new hair, same person,

Waiting for the scars to fade, not worsen.

Don't call it a comeback

Hi, my name is:
Rachel

Never in my life have I been:
asian

High school was:
is..not half bad

When I'm nervous:
i make really uncomfortable faces at my friends

The last time I cried was:
because i had soap in my eye this morning

If I were to get married right now my maid of honor would be:
my sister, katie

My hair is:
three different colors

When I was 10:
i went to killam

Last Christmas:
i gave you my heart?

I should be:
doing this survey

When I look down I see:
my keyboard

If I were a character on 'That 70's Show' I'd be:
fez

By this time next year:
i will be a legal driver

I have a hard time understanding:
arabic

There's this girl I know that:
doesnt eat meat

You know I like you when:
i write blog posts about you

If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be:
my mom

Take my advice:
and youll regret it sooner or later

Something that I really want to buy is:
pickup truck

If you visited the place I was born:
you would love it!

I plan to visit:
and move to...texas

If you spend the night at my house:
you would fall in love with my cat, or my dad

I'd stop my wedding if:
i had half a brain

The world could do without:
iphones

Most recent thing I've bought myself:
a new ring

My favorite blonde is:
lady gaga

My favorite brunette is:
lady gaga

My favorite redhead is:
my mom

My middle name is:
elizabeth

This morning I:
packed for new hampshire

The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are:
elephants

Once, at a bar:
i went to a graduation party

Last night was:
listening to weird music on matts shitty fios.

I don't know:
why i am doing this

Tomorrow I am:
going to be in new hampshire

Tonight I am:
going to be in new hampshire

My birthday is:
november 3rd

What I really wanted for Valentine's Day was:
absolutely nothing

I can sing:
loudly

When was the last time you changed in front of someone?
this morning

Have you ever tripped in public?
oh yes.

Is there anything bothering you right now?
there is not

What color shirt are you wearing?
purple

Do you spend time with the same people always?
sadly, pretty much

Do you care what you look like?
to a point

Who was the last person you spoke on the phone for over an hour?
deffinetly like petrus, 2 years ago

Do you think your next kiss will be a mistake?
oh god i hope not

What are your plans for tonight?
drive up to new hampshire

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
cut offs

Where do you think your best friend is right now?
working

Has anybody ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
not that i can think of, no

Have you kissed the last girl you talked to?
nope

Do you have any dirty pictures on your cellphone?
does a spilled icetea count as dirty?

Will this weekend be a good one?
we will see

Will you be up before 7am tomorrow?
not at all.

Are you excited about anything?
yep !

Are you scared to fall in love?
aint gonna happen

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
if i die tomorrow, yes

Do you believe you can change someone?
no

Do you want to see someone right now?
yes, anyone

How's your life lately?
beautiful

Do you have a bad temper?
i hope not

Do you think you’ll be married in 10 years?
oh wow i hope not

If you could move right now would you?
yes. in a heart beat

Do you usually tell people when they hurt your feelings?
nope

What is the last thing you spent money on?
food

Are any of your friends musicians?
you could say that..

How would you feel if the last guy/girl you talked to wanted to date you?
extremely weird

How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?
three

Have you ever slept in the same bed as your best friend?
yes

Do you think things will change in the next few months?
i think things will change in the next two minutes

If you had to get another piercing (not ears) what would you get?
nose

Do you want kids?
no

Have you ever kissed in the rain?
yep

What do you think of girls sixteen and younger going on the pill?
i think it's a good idea. and its a personal choice that i have no say in

Do you think you could live with your best friend?
yes. easily.

Is your cell phone a touch screen phone?
yeah

Are you a fan of Lady Gaga?
ughghgh yes

Do you like horror or comedy?
im very specific about movies

When showering, do you start the water and then get in, or get in then start the water?
start the water then get in

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
always do

Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
i dont think so, no

Your eyes are what color?
brown

Are you scared of anything?
not generally, no

Do you laugh easily?
yeah

How many times have you been to the ER for yourself?
none

Do you do your own laundry?
no

How many months until your birthday?
four

What are you listening to?
eleanor rigby

Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do?
yeah

Does it bother you when your friends bring up your past mistakes?
not at all.

What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
oreos

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
summmmer.

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
haha yeah.

What was on your mind mostly today?
what to bring to new hampshire

Do you like winter time?
hate it

What was the last movie you watched and when?
ten minutes of the departed yesterday

Did you ever lose a best friend?
yeah

Do you believe that if you want something bad enough, you'll get it?
nope

Any plans for tomorrow?
poooool

Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
nope

What is the last nonalcoholic beverage you had?
water

Ever kissed someone else's boyfriend/girlfriend?
yes

Do you get distracted easily?
yes.

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
effbook

When's the last time you did something you knew was wrong?
who knows

Do you hate the last guy/girl you had a thing with?
nope

Have you ever been out past curfew?
i dont have a set in stone curfew, so no

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
probably katie

What's your relationship with the person you last texted?
we friendsss

Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?
no

Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
i assume so

Do you think that you’re a good person?
no such thing

Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
i used to want it

Is a best friend/boyfriend/girlfriend or ex pissing you off at the moment?
not at all

Do you have any plans for the weekend?
be in new hampshire

Are you in a good mood right now?
yes

What's bothering you right now?
nothing

Are you on medication for anything?
yeah

If you were upset, who's the first girl you would go to?
katie, if shes next door

When was the last time someone yelled at you?
sunday

Who is the last person that called you?
momma

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
yes

Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
yeah

Do you believe ex's can be friends?
of course

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
yes.

Have you ever been a gymnast or a cheerleader?
not really

What woke you up this morning?
kitty

What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
surgery

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
depends

Do you have a favorite Leonardo DiCaprio movie?
no

What was the reason you last received flowers?
valentines day

Have you ever donated blood?
im not old enough, i dont think

What did you do for Valentine's day?

who even knows

List the people that live in your home from tallest to shortest?
sal dad mom me sarah katie

Do you answer the phones at your job?
no

Forget having a drunken night in Mexico-have you ever actually been there?
never been to mexico

A crowd of people stood and starred.

wash my face. brush my teeth. callus my fingers. stalk your facebooks. wash my clothes. walk these streets. read my book. eat my food. pet my kitty. paint the glassware. write their words. go to bed.

and that, my dear, is a day in the life.

Maybe love won't let you down

*footstep. footstep.* were almost there.

*footstep. footstep.* we cant stop now.

pushed and pulled forward. some thing slow us down, but were always walking forward. some things speed us up, but its as long a walk as we want it. Some may run, some perpetually crawl. But we all end up stopping. It's all about how you get there. Were bulldozing pathways out of the untouched land. when that land fills up, it's goodbye for everyone.

You'll be surprised, she says, as your solitude subsides.

When blue and blonde becomes brown and brunette.

When the tables have turned and our characters have new lines.

Actors and actresses, just looking to make it through.

We just want a nod from the director,

any sign that we're doing this right.

But we will never get satisfaction from a man in a chair.

It will come from us.

It will come from you.

The sleepless nights dont go away.

But the tears are replaced with butterflies.

The escaping turns to dancing.

And sooner or later, I'll turn to you.

bored? blog.

silent? sing.

sleepless? stumble.

tension? talk.

cold? coats.

sweaty? swim.

heartbroken? handle it.

run down? freshly ground

It'll swallow us whole if we only let it.

Today i rode the bike to the lake, i swam in the pool with the bugs.

I let this place take me under. I let the air take me over.

I dont have to be in Reading to be at home.

Im comfortable in the world i met yesterday.

Im sleeping in the clothes i bought last week.

It doesnt take time when you know its right,

When it's right, it happens.

When it's wrong, we make it happen.

When it's right, it will last.

When it's wrong, we learn for next time.

When we don't learn, we live and love...

and thats all i need to do.