Cycle-elcyC

it happens every year.
I wait for this season, the presents, the happy, the tree and more.
But just as often, I'm reminded each year that it's not all i hoped it would be.
By two o'clock, they're all gone.
I'm sitting in bed doing just what i did everyday for the past few months.
So I'm in new sweatpants, and there's something new when i look up,
But it's nothing different, and because of that, it's worse.

"Who mistook the steak for chicken?

Who am i gonna stick my dick in?"




love.

Merry Christmas...

stops being so merry when you're home alone in an empty house all night.

APPEARANCE
[x] I am shorter than 5’4
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[ ] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[ ] I have freckles.

FAMILY
[ ] I’ve sworn at my parents.
[ ] I’ve run away from home.
[ ] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I want to adopt someday.
[ ] I’ve had children.
[ ] I’ve lost a child.

SCHOOL/WORK
[x] I’m in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I’ve missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I’ve been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I’ve stolen something from my job
[x] I’ve been fired.

EMBARASSMENT
[x] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[x] I’ve glued my hand to something
[ ] I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I’ve had my trousers rip in public.

HEALTH
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I’ve gotten stitches.
[ ] I’ve broken a bone.
[ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[x] I’ve sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I’ve had chicken pox.
[ ] I have/had asthma.

TRAVELING
[x] I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I’ve been on a plane.
[ ] I’ve been to Canada.
[ ] I’ve been to Mexico.
[ ] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I’ve been to Japan.
[ ] I’ve Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I’ve been to Europe.
[ ] I’ve been to Africa.

EXPERIENCES
[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[x] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[x] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I’ve been to a casino.
[ ] I’ve been skydiving.
[x] I’ve gone skinny dipping.
[x] I’ve played spin the bottle.
[ ] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I’ve crashed a car.
[ ] I’ve been Skiing
[ ] I’ve been in a play.
[ ] I’ve met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
[ ] I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I’ve played chicken.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[ ] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I’ve eaten Sushi.
[ ] I’ve been snowboarding.

RELATIONSHIPS
[x] I’m single
[ ] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[ ] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[ ] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced
[ ] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back more than once.
[x] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[ ] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[ ] I’ve told someone I loved them and didn’t get a clear response.
[x] I’ve felt rejected even if I wasn’t.
[x] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
[ ] I’ve loved someone I knew a friend was already in love with.

HONESTY
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[ ] I’ve snuck out of my house.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[x] I’ve cheated on a test.
[x] I’ve been suspended from school.


BAD TIMES
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can’t swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I’m depressed.
[x] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with anorexia or bulimia.
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I’m addicted to self harm
[ ] I’ve woken up crying.

DEATH
[ ] I’m afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[ ] I’ve seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.

MATERIALISM
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.


RANDOM
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[x] I don’t kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I obsess over grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair
[x] I have “x”s in my screen name
[ ] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day
[ ] I can cook.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red black or blue.
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online a lot, even as an away message.
[x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I can’t sleep if there is a roach in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games.
[x] I’m good at remembering faces.
[x] I’m good at remembering names.
[ ] I’m good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

nat, dev & ray.

When we question our authenticity, we become more real than ever before.

What happened to my sweet girl?

Possibly the best fucking movie ever.

phrolicing.

Ozzy blames dyslexia.

I blame the past.

We both need to stop.

From Autumn to Ashes.

Beautiful chords can't cover up the broken voices, the hidden lyrics.
Your heart is on your sleeve and there's no turning back.
Transparent bodies in a sea of magnifying glasses.
Every soul has a scar, everyones walking with spears in their backs.
We all know the end of a row all too well.
A blessing and a curse, a chorus without a verse.
Haunting and repeating until your hair is ripped out.
The circles are deep and trailed upon.
Marked with our footsteps, even the shy first strides.
We entered the ring with miles to go.
Then we realized this is no more than to and fro.
With so much drama in the LBC,
it's kinda hard being snoop d-o double g.

"Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person?"

And the subtle way that they do these things,

and it hurts so much, so much like

choking down the ambers 

of the greatest blaze."

Long were the nights

when i finally realized i never cared for your company anyway, i found another you.
he's better.

i found the freedom in myself that you always hated.
it's nice.

we both already knew that..

and because of that, we're all alright.

When

i walk home alone, i feel like...
the rest of the world likes it that way.
the people in the cars can't see my face.
each step is 40 miles long.
each street is long as the ocean.

"Love that will not betray you, dismay or enslave you,

It will set you free.

Be more like the man you were made to be.

There is a design,

An alignment to cry,

At my heart to see,

The beauty of love as it was made to be"

Strategic Numerical Audiences.

1. Your unnecessary excuses are getting a little out of hand.

2. I hate the face you've been wearing for the past month or so.

3. I want your body, not your dumb, one-track mind.

4. We live the same life, in two different worlds.

5. I miss when you used to laugh, not at someone's expense.

6. She's not a saint, and she's not what you think, she's an actress...woaaaah

Dreaming of Winters

Sing a song to the dead when your words are left unsaid.
They'll remind you of a time when you always felt fine.
With winds, words and sounds, they'll carry you to the other side of town.
You'll see a girl with a smile, and then she will leave for a while.
Now it's up to you, take with you the words and sounds,
or forever be lost, just waiting to drown.

Godlovesugly

There is a moment in every living things life when they feel it.
You become hyperaware of your existence and place on the earth, in this galaxy.
You start you define yourself in relation to debates and questions.
You see who you stand next to and who you're facing.
This moment may start at anytime, but it never really ends.
There are so many things that make me different than you.
I will not agree with many things that you say, but i will stand with you on other things.
I do not believe in a god.
I believe sexuality is nothing to be ashamed of,
but the state of LGBT rights in this country is.
I hate professional sports.
I love to make pictures where there once was blank space.
Smells and sights are the most important senses to me.
More beauty can come from a six string than any orchestra on earth.
I think in lists, writing them is more natural than breathing to me.
I have a very short attention span.
I find very few humans unattractive.
People interacting is amazing to me.
I try to keep a clean aura.
I like to remember everything anyone has ever said to me.
I miss someone very much, i don't go a day without wondering about them.
Nothing is more important to me than sharing experiences with people i love.
I think i could love everyone,
if locked in a room with them for over 5 minutes.
I like being in a team or group.
I paint to not be alone.
What's breathing behind your mask?

"Cause just like a tree planted, planted by the river of water
 That bringeth forth fruits, bringeth forth fruits in due season
 Every thing in life got its purpose
 Find its reason in every season, forever."