Surved.

• 1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
• Alive - P.O.D
• Hideaway - Where The Wild Things Are
• International Love - Pitbull
• Flickin' Ashes - Wiz Khalifa
• Rhythm of my Heart - Rod Stewart
• Spin Around  - Josie and the Pussycats
• 2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
• My grandfathers
• 3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
• "That's nice," she said. "My mum's boyfriend's going to buy me one of them. Or a ladybird one. If I'm good, that is."
• 4) What do you think about most?
• Probably skin
• 5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
• Awezomeee c ya in da morning
• 6) Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
• summer - none. winter - with
• 7) What's your strangest talent?
• I can belly dance very well.
• 8) Girls.... (finish the sentence); Boys.... (finish the sentence)
• Girls are more complex than one sentence; boys are more complex than one sentence.
• 9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
• Did you already forget the willows?
• 10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
• No where over two days ago
• 11) Do you have any strange phobias?
• Walking up my stairs in the dark
• 12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
• Many-a cottonballs and beads yes
• 13) What's your religion?
• Happy
• 14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
• Walking, burning myself, being really competitive in some game or picking grass
• 15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
• neither
• 16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
• Destiny's Child
• 17) What was the last lie you told?
• That Destiny's Child is a band.
• 18) Do you believe in karma?
• Not in the real sense. People get what they deserve because people give them what they deserve, not some weird force.
• 19) What does your URL mean?
• facebook - my name. blogger - I'm a reckless person, sometimes i have to remind myself that im not invincible 
• 20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
• weakness - i would do anything for someone with a big huge mouth. 
• strength - i can accept that
• 21) Who is your celebrity crush?
• Chevy Woods
• 22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
• Yesss
• 23) How do you vent your anger?
• Drive, windows down, somwehre with you - kenny chesney
• 24) Do you have a collection of anything?
• Not money.....but ya no
• 25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
• Seeing someone in real life. 
• 26) Are you happy with the person you've become?
• Yes.
• 27) What's a sound you hate; sound you love?
• Hate - chairs moving on tile. Love - uncontrollable laughter
• 28) What's your biggest "what if"?
• What if I didn't waste time being unhappy when i was younger?
• 29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
• No, no
• 30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
• My sisters bed, my wall
• 31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
• Winter
• 32) What's the worst place you have ever been to?
• Marblehead, MA
• 33) Choose East Coast or West Coast?
• East
• 34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
• Chevy Woods
• 35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
• To exist.
• 36) Define Art.
• Anything you make, fix, rebuild, for beauty's sake.
• 37) Do you believe in luck?
• No
• 38) What's the weather like right now?
• Cold and probably very dark
• 39) What time is it?
• 9:55pm
• 40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
• Nope
• 41) What was the last book you read?
• When God was a Rabbit - Sarah Winman
• 42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
• Soooo much
• 43) Do you have any nicknames?
• To my family I am Ray or Ray Charles
• 44) What was the last movie you saw?
• I'm a Cyborg But it's Okay, it was in chinese and had subtitles in English.
• 45) What's the worst injury you've ever had?
• Probably like a bad bruise or something
• 46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
• Nope
• 47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
• Not currently
• 48) What's your sexual orientation?
• Straight
• 49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
• Yes.
• 50) Do you believe in magic?
• No
• 51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
• Nooo not at all
• 52) What is your astrological sign?
• Scorpio!!
• 53) Do you save money or spend it?
• Spend
• 54) What's the last thing you purchased?
• Ice cream for katie&Matt
• 55) Love or lust?
• Lust
• 56) In a relationship?
• no.
• 57) How many relationships have you had?
• Millions
• 58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
• nope
• 59) Where were you yesterday?
• Work & School
• 60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
• Yes, a pillow
• 61) Are you wearing socks right now?
• yes
• 62) What's your favorite animal?
• Cats!
• 63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
• Honesty
• 64) Where is your best friend?
• probably home
• 65) Spit or swallow?
• Swallow
• 66) What is your heritage?
• Italian and Irish
• 67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
• Sleeping
• 68) What do you think is Satan's last name?
• Claus
• 69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?
• Yes
• 70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
• Yes. Very much so
• 71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
• Help the dog
• 72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
• a. tell no one
• b. live the same
• c. scared shitless
• 73) You can only have one of these things; trust or love.
• Trust
• 74) What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
• Don't Be Shy - Shwayzeeeeeee
• 75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
• 2536
• 76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
• Friendship
• 77) How can I win your heart?
• You can't
• 78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?
• Insanity is crativity
• 79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
• Liscense
• 80) What size shoes do you where?
• 6-7
• 81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
• In this life things are much harder than in the afterworld, this life you're on your own. -Prince
• 82) What is your favorite word?
• Day
• 83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.
• Valentine
• 84) What is a saying you say a lot?
• No way.
• 85) What's the last song you listened to?
• What Goes Up - Matik
• 86) Basic question; what's your favorite color/colors?
• Green
• 87) What is your current desktop picture?
• Wiz&Amber
• 88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
• Some asshole
• 89) What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on?
• What's your favorite movie.
• 90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do?
• Touch them
• 91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
• Super Elasticity
• 92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
• Birth
• 93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
• Foot surgery
• 94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
• David Bowie
• 95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
• Sicily
• 96) Do you have any relatives in jail?
• Yes
• 97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?
• Yes
• 98) Ever been on a plane?
• Yes
• 99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
• Live it
• 100) Give me your top 5 favorite blogs on Tumblr.
• no thanks.

Dammit

Yesterday, you wore no cap and gown. Your name didn't echo through the speakers in that room and bounce off the bleachers. I sat in the sun, wondered if you knew the significance that day might have held for you. A tear was shed for the proud girl i'll never get to be, for the cheers i'll never get to yell, for your parents who can't watch one more little kid hold the most important piece of paper he'll ever have, for the friends who couldn't scream for you in your moment of freedom, for the one who skipped your name because you were no where to be found, and finally for the smile on your face that you'll never have. I hope your smiling wherever you are. I hope you have a guitar, and someone who will sing along with you.  I hope you dream of Glorie and all she meant to you. I hope you regret the day she left, the day you moved on to that shiny, new piece of shit. Sitting here in your t-shirt, listening to the cd you gave me, reading the books you gave me, I'm wishing the world for you.
"The sky will never look the same again until you show me how it could be."

we are nothing but a demon in a dream,
no one without 3 sugars and cream.

Too much? Never enough.

"When you can say you're not afraid to die, you're as free as the birds in the sky."

I'll never stop searching for a better way of doing everyday tasks, like brushing my teeth.

I'll never be satisfied with the amount of fries in a mcdonald's medium fry.

I'll never walk up my stairs and not expect something to be missing or out of place.

I'll never be able to read all the books i buy and listen to all the music i steal.

But, I'll never fear death.

SOUNDING A MOSAIC

Enter the night glassy eyed and ready.

Flash on, a change of clothes in the back.

My phone's away, my voice is louder.

Wheel becomes a drumroll, the brake, a kickdrum.

Blurring the lights, the motion moves on.

I will enter the night, for the promise of life.

fate and folly

from now on, everyone is a second best, a rebound, settling for less.
day old steak, flat coke and an open freezer.
a sustained note, the breathe before a dive, 1% battery life.
lying to myself over pasta and chicken nuggets.
changing my memories in a scalding shower.
running away through dying my hair.
incomparable to back then.

TripOn

“Don’t be afraid to be a fool. Remember, you cannot be both young and wise. Young people who pretend to be wise to the ways of the world are mostly just cynics. Cynicism masquerades as wisdom, but it is the farthest thing from it. Because cynics don’t learn anything. Because cynicism is a self-imposed blindness, a rejection of the world because we are afraid it will hurt us or disappoint us. Cynics always say no. But saying yes begins things. Saying yes is how things grow. Saying yes leads to knowledge. “Yes” is for young people. So for as long as you have the strength to, say yes.”

Legs

I'm taking this for what it is, an ending.

I went out with a bang, in hopes that i never go back.

I'm keeping track of today for what it is, terrible.

I hope i'll remember this feeling tomorrow, and forever.

I'm writing my own story.

Not Bitter No More

Hop on the bus, cause here we go.
Hiding in sheds, getting under the influence.
Running from mom's, getting under the influence.

Zep

There's a lady who's sure, all that glitters is gold.

she found her way from a bus stop on the corner.

with a map by her side, looking straight ahead,

she got on with the rest of them and drove into the sun.

no one asked her why and no one looked twice,

but she sang all the way, from dusk until dawn.

she sang of the life she's running towards,

and she's buying the stairway to heaven.