You're always a day away

I'm waiting for the 'JK' to form out of this starless sky. I'm holding out for the surprise party that all this lying has been covering up. I'm hoping for a light at the end of this dark incessant tunnel.
I know better than this. But I'm afraid you don't.

This is where i have been. I can't put it into words, i can't even explain it to myself. But it's there, it's here, it's this. I should be able to look myself in the eyes. I want to see your eyes, your smile, your warm, comfortable smile.

But i guess thats still too much to ask. So i'm staying strong for tomorrow, that faithful tomorrow.

Importance.

Whatever is important to me will takes its place.

It will be number one, it will be my reason, it will be my explanation.

Today, importance takes its form in:

sunlight, running barefoot on grass, the intoxicating smell of paint, dancing shamelessly, tears bursting into butterflies, not forgetting where you came from, awkward references to crack a smile, songs on repeat for more than an hour, general lowering of madness, and regretlessly living.

I was off to drink you away

Dear %(&$@#,

It's been 4 days, 96 hours, 5,760 minutes. I haven't stepped out of my house, eaten, slept. I don't answer the phone, the door, the birds. Blood and dirt line the couch, the floor, the walls. All that's left are my pictures, your letters, our memories.

Hello,

8:20 on Friday June 25th, 2010, I'm all yours.

"By living deeply in the present moment we can understand the past better & prepare for a better future." -Thich Nhat Hanh

Selfish Discontentment

A lot of people around here have lost the white in their eyes.

My heart is melting.

My heart is breaking.

My eyes are soaking.

My thoughts are showing.

My strings are being strummed.

My words are getting louder.

My body is being numbed.

I'd love to take a powder.

Reflections and Reality

It was like looking in the mirror for the first time. I noticed my face lacked percise symmetry, and my nose tilted, ever so slighty, to the left. Unsure what to do next, i slowly widened my eyes and saw every red line that tainted the white surface. The big brown circles in the middle moved in a methodic manner, tracing the perimeter. It was as if i was watching somebody's life flash before their eyes. There was a longing to help them. There was a desprate strive to do whatever i could to help. She moved when I moved, she spoke when i spoke. She did what i wanted to do myself. She was prettier than me. When i was happy, she smiled. When i was sad, she shed a tear or two. When i thought of him, she sulked. When i was tired, she slept. My mind's images were shadowed by her brush strokes. My words were echoed through her lips. We walked down the street. We held hands, an endless game of red rover against the whole world. We were ready, we were prepared. The clock struck 4. The clock struck 5. Our feet moved like clockwork along the sidewalks, pathways and stairs. All the way home, all the way home. Home was a building, home had an address. Now, home is a journey, home is whereever you're headed. Home is where you'll recognize the face in the glass and the lips that touch your forehead. This isnt a blur, this isnt a coincidence. This is clarity, peace and familiarity.

Are you for real?

You sing like a simple love song. You scream like a restless gong.

You resemble the blinding sunlight. Your colder than the burial site.

You move like the rustled lake. You burry me in crashing waves.

You taste like soft angel food cake, made by tortured, angry slaves.

Ghost Riders In The Sky

I need that hum on my lips and the beat on my feet.

I need a soundtrack to my nights, full of summer's heat.

I want that book in my hand and the sun in my eyes.

I want to talk to your soul, do no more than improvise.

I'm looking for the guys with a hint of surprise.

I'm looking for the disquised, the hidden and incised.

We panic in a peW

We wont stop until somebody calls the cops

The past few months taught me a lot.

Don't sleep in.

Don't save money. You could die tomorrow.

Don't put all your eggs in one basket.

Don't reject knowledge.

Dream lazily.

Cats like anything that moves.

Write down everything.

Change is everywhere.

Don't please them.

Tuned guitars make me uncomfortable.

Scars fade fast.

Do it for the living.

And do it for the dead.

Do it for the monsters under your bed.

Don't be sad over something that never made you happy.

Listen to music that reflects everything you want to be.

Don't settle.

Paint mindlessly.

Nothing is permanent.

Everything can be fixed.

Some things should be left unsaid.